Trauma, Love, & Relationships

You know they say that love comes in many different forms. But when it came to loving you I found it easier than normal. We have been through a lot of things in our past but we didn't let it define us. We were different but we blended ourselves into one.


What happened to us? We were just having the time of our lives. I even took the time to make you mine but then all of a sudden you went cold...


There were no more hangouts, no more facetime calls, no more texts. Just two people back to living two separate lives. Two separate lives like we don't even know each other anymore. Two people living in a world of seven billion people who act like we didn't share the same thing. Out of seven billion people, I choose you but you don't want me.


You thought that going through a rough patch would've made me run. All it did was make me want to stay. You say you need time but how much time? Space? How much space? None of this makes sense. You act like you are in this alone but you aren't. Haven't you noticed that I deal with FIVE mental disorders? So you really thought that I was going to run? But hey I'm used to people running away from me. I even told everyone that I was the problem.


It's always "it's not you. it's me. you're a great person Kyy but I can't do this." If I had a dollar for every time I've been told that I would be rich. Because I am the problem and nobody ever wants to just tell me that. But being told, "You are an amazing person and I wish it was different." hits a lot harder knowing that you changed your ways and have been working on yourself. I would be lying if I said this doesn't hurt but I figured you know it does. What makes it worse is that I took my time and made sure that I was able to do everything right this go round. But yet I was still the one who gets played... it always seems like I always get the short end of the stick...

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