Hey Sol Warriors!! The month of April is to bring awareness about sexual assault. As a survivor of a sexual assault, I believe it is very important to bring awareness to this because it can happen to anyone, regardless of sex, age, and race.
Before we dig deep, if you have been following me since I started you know that my blog has been teal since I started. So, as I was doing research on what April's awareness was when I came across sexual assault awareness month and I wanted to know their ribbon color their logo, everything. I found out that their ribbon color is teal and when I read that I cried. I didn't know what it was but the fact that it was my blog color and the fact that my assault happened last year it all made sense.
Sexual assault is defined as an illegal sexual contact that usually involves force upon a person without consent or is inflicted upon a person who is incapable of giving consent (as because of age or physical or mental incapacity) or who places the assailant (such as a doctor) in a position of trust or authority, according to Merriam Webster.
In most cases when a person gets sexually assaulted, they know their attacker. Their attacker is normally a significant other, a family member, friend, et cetera. There was some type of trust between them and that person, whether it was the fact that they showed different ways in public and when they were alone, they didn’t act the same. Nobody expects this to happen to them.
We tend to say “oh that would never happen to me” but when it does, we are left confused and broken. Once we experience something that traumatic, we tend to change our views in a lot of different ways. We start acting different and we can’t talk about it because we are too scared. We start to move differently and do go to certain places because it reminds us of that situation.
In some cases, we want to confine in the people we trust but are scared because what if they think we brought this upon ourselves? Or what if they don’t believe me? Or what if they think I am a hoe and I just want this person to look like the bad guy? Or what if because of this person's reputation nobody will think they did it?
These are just some of the questions that went through my head. I have yet to fully understand that this wasn’t my fault. I didn’t bring this upon myself. I thought I was in good hands. I thought I could trust them. They didn’t act like this during the times that we hung out together. What made this time differently? Was it something that I